I found what I spent my whole life looking for, and I didn't like what I found. Hoping that there was some possibility that none of it was real was A relief.
I understand betrayal. I understand helplessness. I understand remembering all the lives you destroyed, and knowing that the potential for that destruction still remains inside you.
Your pain is your own, and if you need to be alone with it to heal then that is what you need. But you aren't as alone as you feel.
It was an earthquake. That's why I'm not going back in. Because I couldn't stop it, and there's no telling it wouldn't start up all over again the minute I was inside. I unplugged to get rid of it.
That is a terrifying amount of power to have forced upon you. And never plugging back in is as valid a path as any other. I'm sure you've met some freeborn already.
[There are other things he could say, other options, and how living in fear could lead to it consuming you. But it's taken a lot for her to tell him this, so right now, he doesn't think she needs to hear them.]
A city populated entirely by military wouldn't be much of a city at all. Though even in the ZDG, there are roles for those who cannot or prefer not to plug in, if your interest ever turned that way.
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A relief.
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Not in others.
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Your pain is your own, and if you need to be alone with it to heal then that is what you need. But you aren't as alone as you feel.
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[There are other things he could say, other options, and how living in fear could lead to it consuming you. But it's taken a lot for her to tell him this, so right now, he doesn't think she needs to hear them.]
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[Just leaving it hanging like that because he's not going to spell it out over a feed.]
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